CASPER
THE FRIENDLY GHOST
Envy him
who's dead was
what the Romans
said. Pretty cold,
and manly—almost like
they didn't know
they were plagiarizing
the Greeks, again—
but still. Burly,
and slightly
deranged, the way the Romans
like their
virtues.
And believe me,
I never
envied my brother,
even now
he's dead though
this raccoon-like
scrabbling through
his clothes, washing
and re-washing
the wan
body, then numbering
the relics
is a bit
much, I know.
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But I only want
to know him,
the parts
cut away
in me that grew
in him, maybe
more manly, almost
Roman. About the picture
that emerges
of our father, poor
guy? A suburban
jefe but
Jim I think
loved him, well, at least
through puberty
and I suppose I did, that
much, too. Jim
never put our
father down,
even as he shrinks
in what is now
euphemistically called
real time, though
it would be nice
to think his vices
contract
at the same rate,
in that sense of
compensation
Nature
is rumored to have,
I see
father's sins dry
as sugar, dried
into veins
of fossilized wishes
some fantasy
of doing right
by us. Well.
I still hope
for mercy and one day
he may be forgiven,
maybe by one
of the statues he loved
so much,
some Irish saint, the patron
of rage, omelets,
gimlets and
maybe insurance.
who's dead was
what the Romans
said. Pretty cold,
and manly—almost like
they didn't know
they were plagiarizing
the Greeks, again—
but still. Burly,
and slightly
deranged, the way the Romans
like their
virtues.
And believe me,
I never
envied my brother,
even now
he's dead though
this raccoon-like
scrabbling through
his clothes, washing
and re-washing
the wan
body, then numbering
the relics
is a bit
much, I know.
+++++++++++++++++
But I only want
to know him,
the parts
cut away
in me that grew
in him, maybe
more manly, almost
Roman. About the picture
that emerges
of our father, poor
guy? A suburban
jefe but
Jim I think
loved him, well, at least
through puberty
and I suppose I did, that
much, too. Jim
never put our
father down,
even as he shrinks
in what is now
euphemistically called
real time, though
it would be nice
to think his vices
contract
at the same rate,
in that sense of
compensation
Nature
is rumored to have,
I see
father's sins dry
as sugar, dried
into veins
of fossilized wishes
some fantasy
of doing right
by us. Well.
I still hope
for mercy and one day
he may be forgiven,
maybe by one
of the statues he loved
so much,
some Irish saint, the patron
of rage, omelets,
gimlets and
maybe insurance.