I was holding my Mother in my arms when she died and I can tell you that I felt what could only be described as a " grand outflowing of spirit". And yes... if the windows hadn't already have been opened.... I would have had the urgent intuitive notion to open them.
That said... once free and " dispersed" as these scientists seem to believe possible they still haven't addressed the situation that the " soul" that was my Mother still has the ability to reach back to me in my everyday lives and do things that are absolutely as funny as she was. And I can always sense when its HER. I believe science is a long way from figuring THAT one!
I think that all of you know that my husband is not the most easily swayed person in the world. He sets a course and very Yankee like.... he goes in that direction. There is not much room in Georges life for " fanciful thinking" When things get too " wild" for him he simply turns off his receivers.
Mother thought that he was a good match for me at the time. " At least dear" she said.... He won't roll his things into a duffelbag and be gone out of your life for six months at a time." And of course she was right... she also adored George because he was the loving security that we all needed during those last few months of her life....and I have watched her through the years... reach back to touch him in ways that were downright funny!
Yesterday he announced that he had been " Thinking of Momma" ( he always called her that) and he mentioned that he had a clear vision of her making a shirt for Charles Miller....how very good she was at that and that he could actually SEE her with her tape and the pins.... I laughed at the image too and said the only thing that came into my head.... " Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, Spy".
George looked right at me and said ( honest ) "Thats a GREAT name for your next book!"
I had to tell him of course that title had already been used..... but I could almost hear my Mother laughing.... not at him for not knowing... but at the situation because she had gotten George to recognize that such a thing was in the future.... and that she was right there with us....all of us....
" Amazing" he said..... "I could see her so clearly!"
Though I am looking forward to talking someday to Dr. Hameroff.... I think that even he will agree that no matter what they discover... it will be both EVERYTHING and NOTHING. Linda