This is good for reference for all of us:
Ego death is only a death to the extent that the heart becomes our master and the mind, as well as the ego, becomes the servant on the journey to fully embrace yourself
-Allen L Roland-
There is nothing wrong with me, everything is perfect. I'm in full control!
I can't stay in control and manipulate things anymore, it's not working anymore and it's making me angry.
I'll hang on to something so I won't get out of control and have to deal with the unknown, the truth and all those scary feelings deep inside me that I have avoided for years.
Why am I feeling so sad, and it seems to go so deep. If only I could get out of this pit of overwhelming despair.
I'm feeling so sad and there is nothing I can do about it. I can't deny these feelings or the truth any longer.
What is this joy and excitement I'm feeling beneath this sadness, and it doesn't have anything to do with someone else. It's me ! I'm finally beginning to trust my deepest feelings and a growing sense that everything is going to be all right.
Being myself is not only enough, its beautiful. I will no longer say no to myself or allow my self to be controlled by fear, especially my fear of love and Joy! This is the most difficult stage of ego death for you can no longer use someone else as an excuse for you saying no to yourself. As such, it is the ultimate yes to yourself.
8. BEING IN SERVICE
There is something I'm supposed to be doing and I'm ready to do it!